There’s something about jumping into the unknown - either metaphorically or physically – that does something to you. It makes you feel. Whether it’s a feeling of being alive or out of control or fearful or carefree; you can’t escape it and you have to talk about it.
“What was it like for you when you jumped off the platform?” We all asked each other with a laugh. Did you feel scared? What did it feel like when your feet left the ground? Did you think about your harness failing or were you swept up in the moment? All I know was for me, the feeling was surprising. It was a feeling of change. It was acceptance. It was letting go. All at the same time. And I felt no fear at all.
I wanted to dive in not only with an open mind but a laugh, a smile and a full running, giving-it-my-all jump. And in some way it was symbolic of the next phase of my life that I have been reluctant to go into. I’ve been clinging to my past; my-oh-so-comfortable past. What if I’m not strong enough? What if the harness fails? What if I fail? What if, what if what if. But as I went gliding, after the initial jump, my eyes saw so much beauty. The river, the forest, the cliffs and - my favorite of all - my friends cheering me on; laughing and excited for my new experience. It’s a moment I will never forget and a reminder of all the joy, growth and beauty I would have missed if I would have been too fearful to take the jump.
Looking back I felt like the Proverbs 31 woman. “She laughs without fear of the future.” That experience it will be more than just an exciting jump on a beautiful Saturday in Zambia. It’s where I realized that if I don’t jump into the unknown I will never experience all the beauty God has for me to see. So I will jump without fear. The winds of change are coming. Will I be ready and willing to go? Yes. Yes, I will.